Hello I'm back

Ok so I haven't been here for a while. It's not like I don't need to come here or I'm so busy or happy I've not needed to come. I've been UP and DOWN big time.When I'm up I've had loads to say but filled my little world right up with stuff to do. When I've been down I've also had lots to say but it's all very depressing.
I keep rotating between severe bad moods when I have so much anger brewing in me I feel like a teenager. It's a horrid feeling. RRRAAGGHH!!!! Honestly haven't felt like that for a long time. HATE IT!!!! And then I have the whole uplifting feeling of euphoria. God I'm glad to be alive, want to get fit, enjoy life, make the most etc...
Gonna go again now, got so much to say but not tonight, not after I've had a bottle of wine. oooh am I naughty? Are cancer patients allowed a bottle of wine or is that asking for it? XXX